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When Emotions Flow ..love or trust

Sometimes The depth of Human Emotions Overshadows The Mind in Control, A maze of Emotions Encloses My Thoughts; My Very Soul,Only leaving a breathless Motion,The decision to Only Move On .. All weak,All alone..

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When Emotions Flow ..love or trust

Smiling Is Not Mah Reality

เ ωяเтє σиℓy тσ ℓєт нim киσω ωнคт เ ƒєєℓ ƒσя нim.... คυя คgคя нυм คคρкค Dเℓ cнυяค ℓє тคυ ƒเя нυмє иค кєниค кyυи кเ.... нυм тคυ คครнเq нคเ รเяƒ ครнเqυเ Jคคитє нคเ, кเรเ кє внเ ∂iℓ кσ cнυяคиค Jคคитє нคเ, Iรเℓเyє тคυ ρєнℓє нเ вคтค яคнє нคเ คคρкσ, ƒเя иค кєниค кเ нυм ∂เℓ cнυяคиค jคคитє нคเ... ISHQ wich hoyi bewfayi taan dekhi Jaaugi, Je tu preet na nibhayi taan dekhi Jaaugi, "M" ta rabb de kehen te vi Teri baanh ni chhaddni, Je tu aapni Sauh payi taan dekhi Jaaugi !

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Friday, January 8, 2010

At night I miss you most of all
When darkness begins to fall,
It's then I reach into my heart
You are there never to depart.

Loving words you have said to me
Remains etched in my memory,
You vow your love so very true
Showing it in all things you do.

I need you in my life every day
To help me along a lonely way,
I must hear love words you say
Or my world will taint to gray.

In my dreams you are with me
In reality you are never to be,
Our deep love is pure and strong
Why then is it so very wrong.

As time passes on without you
My love will still remain true,
I pray for a day we will be free
To share eternal love in reality

Posted by Smiling Is Not Mah Reality at 7:07 AM 0 comments

Labels: Hope, Lonelyness, love, Sleepless Nyghts

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

In this painful solitude of mine
In the dark I hear the wind hissing
In my mind the numerous thoughts I ponder
In this horrible heart, I find something missing

These horrible nightmares appear to me
As I walk in the pool of blood
I wish all these were the lies
Or bury my soul into deep mud

I, the terrible victim…
Yet, I possess the strength inside
When I have knocked the door of death
But reality pushed me to survive

Although this is the test from above
Says I failed, but my love is true
This love will accompany my faith
To travel as far to reach you!

Posted by Smiling Is Not Mah Reality at 4:45 AM 0 comments

Labels: Heart, Hope, Lonelyness, love

Nothing without love..

It seems to be wrong
But it looks so right
When sorrow lurches in
I just don’t want to fight

When i give up to live
Even the almighty din’t care
Never grow up to my age
With no pleasure could spare

Knowing all these ill-fate
You cried along with me
You pleaded me to beleive
And i opened my eyes to see

When i think life is hopeless
With no pity from above
There you came my way
Nothing can beat your love

Posted by Smiling Is Not Mah Reality at 4:45 AM 0 comments

Labels: Heart, Hope, Lonelyness, love

IN MY DREAMS U R MINE.......
BUT IN MY LIFE U R MY DREAM.....

A RELATION IS NOT HOW LONG U BEEN 2GETHER,
NOT HOW MUCH U GIVE OR TAKE,
NOT HOW MANY TIMES U TALK 2 EACH OTHER ....
ITS ALL ABT HOW U VALUE 1 ANOTHER.....

MY SILENCE DOES NOT MEAN I M GONE....
MY QUITENESS DOES NOT MEAN I FORGOT....
BUT DEEP IN MY HEART....
ANYWHERE ANYTIME U R ALWAYZZ REMEMBERED,CARED & MISSED....

Posted by Smiling Is Not Mah Reality at 4:36 AM 0 comments

Labels: Hope, love

Sunday, January 3, 2010

this is how i am, this is how u first saw me...
its the kind of girl u fell in love with, i am the one u have to leave,

but don't look into these eyes, i'm sure the tearz you cn't see...
even if my heart was cut with a knife, it would smile with the cut so deep,

you gave me all this strength you could, you made me the girl u wanted me to be....
m used to this situation though, drowning my tearz inside of me,

sometimes i think what type of girl am i, just show u the way i feel....
everytime that your close to me, the moment becomes eternity,

i am the type of girl who loves u the most, my love is as deep as the sea....
the girl who has given u her all, her mind, her soul and her body,

don't ever hurt me my love, without you this heart will be empty....
i have loved you equally or more each day, YES you have become my destiny!!!!

Posted by Smiling Is Not Mah Reality at 2:46 AM 0 comments

Labels: Emotion, Hope, love, Meri Kehaani

Saturday, December 19, 2009

My eternal desire is to hold you
But it seems to me so hard to do
Is something wrong with my love?
I tried alot to reason it out

Every single day i made an effort
Yet i found myself lacking the force
Finally i lay on bed in pathetic pain
My love increases but nothing i gain

Am i holding you with me so tight?
Although i want to let it go every night
But when the hold of my feelings loosen
I am scared to find myself alone in the end

These feelings dominate me in unique way
Without them i’m a walking dead everyday
A grown-up who doesn’t know to live on my own
Because you never taught me to live alone!

Posted by Smiling Is Not Mah Reality at 5:23 AM 0 comments

Labels: Hope, Lonelyness, love

Saturday, October 31, 2009

Always in my heart
you make me feel more loved
than I've ever felt
and happier than I've ever dreamed.
The love and understanding you have
is something I have searched for
my entire life.
Always in my happiest
and saddest moments,
you are my best friend and confidante.
I come to you for everything,
and you listen to me without judgment.

Always, deep within my soul,
I know we have a love like no other.
What we share is something others
only hope for and dream of,
but few ever experience.
Our love is magical beyond belief.
Always, without hesitation,
you give of yourself completely.
You have reached the very depths of my soul,
bringing out emotions I never knew I had
and unveiling an ability to love
I never thought possible.

Always and forever
you will be my dream come true,
the one I have waited for all these years.
From now until the end of time,
I will love only you.
We will be together always.

Posted by Smiling Is Not Mah Reality at 8:13 AM 0 comments

Labels: Heart, Hope, Life, love

Reasons why I love you..! ..

The Reasons I Love You
by Carrie Sue
I love you because you make me happy
I love you because you make me feel safe and secure
I love your smile
I love the way you say my name
I love the look in your eyes when you tell me you love me
And how you laugh at me when I do something stupid,
when others would put me down.

I love the fact that when I'm around you I can be myself and not worry
about what you may think of me, because I know you love me for who I am.
No matter what my faults may be.

I love being able to wake up with you by my side...
It makes my days better
At night I love watching you sleep, hearing you take each breath, and
feeling your heart beat with the palm of my hand... reality hits that you
are not a dream YOU ARE MINE.

I love the way you wrap your arms around me and hold me really tight,
like there is no tomorrow
And I love the way I feel when your lips barely touch mine for a kiss, the
love and emotions that go through me at that moment are unexplainable.
I love your laugh
I love hearing your voice
I love that you get along with my family and friend, no matter how much
you dislike them, or who they are.

And hearing you tell me your stories, you could tell them to me a thousand
times, and I will never get tired of them, because they are a part of you.

But the main reason I love you is because.....

You are you!

Posted by Smiling Is Not Mah Reality at 3:26 AM 0 comments

Labels: Fall, Heart, Hope, love

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

When we first fell in love, I thought that nothing could compare
To the magical romance, That you and I had come to share.

But as time passed, feelings Deepened, and our closeness grew,
The romance turned into, A real and lasting love with you.

You care for me in all the ways, i want and need so much
I have felt your warmth and tenderness, with every word and touch

I know i can depend on you, far support and honesty,
That patient understanding, that you always give to me.

There is a special kind of happiness, that only love can bring,
ad I have found that happiness with you, you are my everything.

Posted by Smiling Is Not Mah Reality at 2:58 AM 0 comments

Labels: Heart, Hope, Life, love

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

I need you here when i cry
When thier is a tear in my eye
I just need you by my side
becouse i cannot live without you aside
Im so lost without you
Carry me to were i belong
carry me back with you home
U are my baby
my special lady
you are my world
My eternity
No matter what i will fight for you
Baby i realy love you

Posted by Smiling Is Not Mah Reality at 8:02 AM 0 comments

Labels: Hope, love, p

He is beautiful, so very beautiful

Jus like a winter's shinin landscape,
As delicate as the petals of a daisy,
And as freely as the eagle soaring against the blue
His eyes R as mysterious as the calm sea
Everythn bou him is so very precious,
More precious than all the gems in the world
His soul is the essence of the sky and earth,
His feelings R a volcano that is yet to explode
His smile is the smile of lost innocence.
Pain vibrates deep inside of his gentle heart.
A lock shuts in the disturbed thoughts of his mind,
A mind with as many roads as the world has.
I look at him and I see a pure truth,
Like looking at a clear night sky,
Millions of stars twinkle withn him.
He is beauty as I defined it,
He is perfect, his imperfections make him so.
He is my best friend, and I love him,
I love him although, not because.
And I would give up all the things which I think are pretty
If only I can hold his beauty within me,
For he is everything in this world,
And I have found a world in him.

Posted by Smiling Is Not Mah Reality at 1:20 AM 1 comments

Labels: Emotion, love

Thursday, October 22, 2009

WHEN I CLOSE MY EYES

WHEN I CLOSE MY EYES
I SEE YOUR FACE,
YOUR SMILE SHINES SO BRIGHT
I AM IN PARADISE.

WHEN I CLOSE MY EYES
I CAN SEE THE STARS,
YOU CAME INTO MY LIFE
NOW I KNOW WHERE YOU ARE

WHEN I CLOSE MY EYES
YOU ARE ALL I SEE
YOU ARE HEAVEN TO ME.

WHEN I CLOSE MY EYES
THIS FEELING NEVER ENDS
PLEASE GUIDE ME FROM THIS UNKNOWN
MAKE ME YOUR VERY OWN.

WHEN I CLOSE MY EYES
I SEE BEAUTY ALL AROUND
I CAN HEAR THE BIRDS SING,
WE ARE WALKING IN THE SAND
YOU ARE WITH ME
HOLDING MY HAND.

WHEN I OPEN MY EYES
YOU ARE REALLY THERE,
TO TAKE AWAY MY TROUBLES
YOU DO SO MUCH TO CARE.

I WILL KEEP MY EYES WIDE OPEN
LOOK AT THINGS, I DID NOT SEE,
WE HAVE A DREAM COME TRUE
IT WILL ALWAYS LAST WITH YOU AND ME

Posted by Smiling Is Not Mah Reality at 6:37 AM 0 comments

Labels: Heart, Hope, love, Prey

Monday, October 19, 2009

Someone asked me today, what he means to me,
For the first time i was confused, Never thought i would be.

Its hard to believe he is not with me anymore,
Hard to believe that he doesnt love me anymore.

He can say all he wants, but i see it in his eyes,
He can try to look away but i can feel it in his voice.

Eventho i have listened to all his LIES,
he means the worls to me, and i knw he'll always be mine.

So he can;t make me hate him, even if he tries
He is all i want till the end of TIME!!!

Posted by Smiling Is Not Mah Reality at 7:46 AM 0 comments

Labels: love, Prey

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Have I ever told you
that if I sit really still and silent,
sometimes. I like to think
I can hear your heart beating
in time with mine?

Have I ever told you
that when I watch you speak to me
through lines and cords,
and bytes and ram,
I imagine
your voice,
whispering into my ear?

Have I ever told you
that I wait out each day
in anticipation,
wanting
only an hour or two,
just a second in space and time,
to feel close to you?

Have I ever told you
that there has been times,
when I ached for you,
ached for you so badly,
that the emotions overwhelmed me..
and so I sat and cried?

Have I ever told you
that sometimes,
I will reach out,
touching your name
on this cold screen before me,
wishing
I could reach in
and pull you to me?

Have I ever told you
that after the first time I heard
the sound of your voice,
thousands of miles away,
I sat up all night,
turning the conversation over and over
in my mind,
examining it,
like some newly discovered species of flower?

Have I ever told you
that I dream of you often,
I dream of you reaching out
and touching my hand,
simply to let me know
that you are there,
and everything is okay?

Have I ever told you,
have I still yet to tell you . . .
that I love you?

Posted by Smiling Is Not Mah Reality at 8:38 AM 0 comments

Labels: Hope, love

Saturday, December 27, 2008

Jado da ishq hoya tere naal,

Bhul gaye sare jahan nu,

Raatan nu hun painda jagna,

Dil laan di mili eh saza sanu......

Tere naal chalan da sochiya,,

Rah de patharan ne sanu rook liya,

Tere naal umar bitani chahi,

Tere pyar ne sanu rook liya,

Jaano vadd pyar karde se,

Sayad eh khabar nahi se tenu,

Raatan nu hun..................

Patharan vich ve rabb vasda hai,

Eh soch ke thokran khande rahe,

Tere gal dekh gair diyan bavan,

Aapne dil nu samjhande rahe,

Jad tu sada reha nahi,

Dukh daiye kidda teri jaan nu,

Raatan nu hun..................

Khush rah ke ve dekh liya,

Khushi vich ve na miliya koi haal,

Aapne har gane vich,

Yaad aayi teri har pal,

Eh vichode di bhaidi aag,

Aandi aa "Es Pagal" di jind khaan nu,

Raatan nu hun..................

Posted by Smiling Is Not Mah Reality at 7:33 AM 0 comments

Labels: Life, love, Preet Dil Di, Prey

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Trying To Forget Yo u

Up until now
I had so much to say
but it's everything
I've said

That's gotten in my way
I won't talk about you
Anymore to anyone
The time for that has passed

It's just over with and done
Supposed-to-be forgotten wordsare
still dancing in my head
And I'm just trying to "not remember"

A single thing you've said
I wanna forget all about you
Who you are and what your name is
Cause it's causing so much pain

And I honestly can't take this ..

Posted by Smiling Is Not Mah Reality at 6:56 AM 0 comments

Labels: Fall, love, Memories

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Come to Me ,Dont ever Go Away

Where have U gone?!

The one that was always there

The one i depended on

With everyday that goes by

I feel we drift apart

Further and further away

But forever in my heart

Please come back to me

And don't leave me alone

I feel so emptyI feel so cold

I love you i do

With everything i am

But please come back to meAnd hold me where I stand ..

Posted by Smiling Is Not Mah Reality at 4:53 AM 0 comments

Labels: Life, love, Memories, Prey

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Let Me Be happy Once Again

Time spent with you fills me with sheer happiness,
I know together we will never be ,
And this does leave me in sadness,

When I see your smile ,
I can't help but smile too,
You make me feel so special ,

When you look at me the way you do,
Your the one who makes me laugh,
Never am i down when your around..

You say the sweetest of things,
hearing your voice is like a heavenly sound,
You make me so very happy ,

but at the same time I still cry,
I cry because we will never be One,
So to stop loving you I have to try ..

Posted by Smiling Is Not Mah Reality at 10:33 PM 0 comments

Labels: Fall, Hope, Life, love, Memories

Saturday, November 22, 2008

Memories Play a Confusing Role

You left me not too long ago

And yet it seems like

forever,

I reminisce the day you

left all this time

Because I was right there

beside you..

I can't seem to get over

the feelings I had,

At that very moment

I felt so alone,

It grew cold in the room

That I lost all feelings and sense..

All I had was pure silence and disbelief,

I saw people moving towards you all around me

And yet I couldn't move a step towards you,

I couldn't distinguish my emotionsBecause I wasn't sure of them..

I felt soo much anger and sadness,

but I couldn't cryAt that moment I wasn't sure what was wrong,

And now a year & a half later it all comes back to me

Every tear I held in falls, and now I can't seem to stop..

I've realized how much I missed you

And how much I've needed you here

But there is no way for me to reach out for your touch.

I feel so alone right now,That I just wish you could take me with..

Posted by Smiling Is Not Mah Reality at 6:05 AM 0 comments

Labels: Fall, Hope, Life, love, Memories

You & Me - The Precious Moments

You mean the world to me
You are everything to me
Just to hold you close
To feel your loving embrace
Makes me smile and feel loved inside
You have my heart and shall keep it forever
You have the password to my soul

You are the missing piece of the puzzle that shall make me whole
I love you with all my heart
Words cannot describe how i feel
To be apart from you for just a short time
Tears away at me inside
But as soon as i see your beautiful face
And just have one bittersweet kiss
The pain inside me vanishes and is no more

I feel you are my one true love
My reason to live on
Without you I would break
Just shatter into pieces
And float away in the wind
You are the reason that i wake each day
So I hope and pray that you will stay..